The Fear in Love

His darting glance.

My chin dipped into my chest,

my lips pressed tight.

His hand on my wrist tightened.

Why was he here?

Why was I afraid?

His sad, focused eyes.

His vulnerable state.

Around his eyes,

puffiness and redness.

Suddenly,

a pull to his warm torso,

a magnetic force of,

two warm bodies.

My heart ached.

I slowly tilted my head,

up to his gaze.

My eyes lock onto his.

The deepness and shortness of his breath,

my stance was paralysed.

His eyes,

low-spirited and gloomy.

This feeling,

equally,

intense and exhilarating.

What was on his mind?

When will you be mine?

He caught his breath,

I gulped the cold air.

Uncontrollably,

he exhaled onto my complexion.

It started to pour.

Heavy.

Both,

the rain and,

my heart.

Similarly,

his eyes were,

the ocean.

Ocean deep,

Clear and easy,

to fall into.

But was the ocean,

as big as his love for me?

I felt the rush of tears above me.

How are you so beautiful when you cry?

The sound of our hearts synchronise.

His composure relaxed,

his eyes were closed.

In this moment,

his cold-shaky hands,

smoothly grabbed my jaw,

pursing his delicate lips onto mine.

Squeezed my eyes shut,

there I was,

helplessly,

my heart flutters,

a whirlwind of emotions.

This movement of,

two dancers sashaying,

replaying our favourite song.

I knew this wasn't just,

infatuation or lust,

of amusement or desperation.

Almost every inch of me,

was filled with warmth.

My legs trembled,

he pulled me closer,

melting into his body,

I clutched his arm firmly.

It's enviable,

the love I will always,

have for him.

The truth is,

I'm scared of love.

Once we fall in love.

Love becomes,

our surrender.

All or nothing.

I pressed my hand on his heart,

slowly listening to his pulse.

Truly and happily,

He was here with me,

There was no question, no doubt

for the essence of his existence.

Because I knew,

my only fear,

was to lose him.

Softly,

he murmured the words,

I've been longing to hear.

"i love you."

[Taking risks in life builds strength and confidence, even if the outcome is not what you hoped

for.]